控制靈魂-北京

mess  dirty   like drawing room 

do you know kobayashikisei?

什么时候可以自杀？

我没有话说

背疼

没有烟了

为什么老哭

nothing worth crying

but i am crying

so there must be something worth crying

水仙

清水伴 石沉仙

烟遮心焦叶弯

泪漫还散散还漫

几叹花残骨软

still lost in my life

my brain is full of you whole days, but can tell nothing

your phone call last more than 30minutes,  till yours died   till mine died

you said plenty of funny things, i heard it with tear

i went out at night

someone was drunk on the street, they  running   crying   singing

someone shoot off firework,then made a call     it frightened me

i went back alone

i really miss you, why,cause i have already relied on you,that's what you dont want to see

if i could clean the place,we would be better.

i shouldn't destroy yours, but so sorry. i found it painful without you.

iwanttotellanythingimissyou

从十一到现在 是腐烂的生活 人生中最腐烂 精神 肉体 都如此 我仍不敢说现在开始能停止腐烂 早就不相信自己 现在要抽着烟 在凌晨2点 开始解剖自己的生活 如果经过解剖 还不能改变自己 那不如死了好 并不那么在意身体 心里在意 行动却不在意 说明什么 心里没有觉醒 那现在为什么会觉醒 多强烈的刺激才能使自己彻底清醒 变好

这两天过节 过的真是毫无意义 不同的生活 老人们无数年不变的节日 那无聊的团圆 究竟有什么意思 对谁有安慰么 于是我们忍耐 陪着老人 这真的给他们慰藉么 这确实没什么可沟通的 但他们也有自己的原则  即使我狠心不顾一切离开 他们会说 想走就可以走 但是无论什么时候想来 我们都欢迎你

刚刚赌博回来 这多么的无聊 除夕那夜 赢了 于是没有多想 他们给我我赢得的钱 我用来买了可乐自己喝 还买了栗子给大家吃 剩下的钱今天继续玩 输了 开始反省打牌无聊 赢了不是你的 输了也不是你的 这一切只是运气 这也不牵扯金钱 因为跟亲人玩 一切得失最终可以抹去 发现了的是没有话可说的人们在消遣时间 很低级的消遣 人生苦短 这种消遣不足以使人快乐 只是无谓的把人生缩的更短而已 于是现在我后悔不已 时间怎么会都废在这种事情上 一年一次 也许并无大碍 但如果真的对自己负责 就不该浪费任何时间和精力 我们实在有太多的事情要做 这些本是无暇也无需顾及的 时间与精力该投入到什么地方 应有自知 并自制

昨天夜里 看着美好的带有希望的短信睡去 今天却将它遗失在公车上 其实我本来丢手机都丢的麻木了 我记得两个月前丢手机时 我根本没多想什么 因为时常找不到 所以老叫着手机丢啦 结果真丢了 竟能很坦然的接受事实 可今天 当下了公车 发现找不到手机时 心里很慌 想着怎么找回来 觉得人家捡到会还给我的 打车追公车  春节车上人少 车也经常不停站 狂追了很多站 终于追上 上车看 手机已不在 打电话 已关机 没有希望了 就这么丢了 眼泪出来了 你在临走前的夜里 帮我在手机里存了好听的歌 美丽的图 那手机里还有你昨天晚上发来的对我而言很贵重的短信 我真舍不得它

我记得前几天晚上在皇城根那边 一个人塞着耳机走路 突然感觉被人拍了拍 回头是一个附近居民样子的女人 她递给我一条咖啡 说  姑娘 你刚才掉的  我一看 肯定是我刚才翻包拿东西时掉出来的 我根本没有察觉 她接着说  叫你半天 你没听见  我那时差点跟她说 对不起 刚说了个对字 马上改为谢谢 笑着离去

你看 什么样子的人都有 对于这件事  我不知道这能怎么评论 只能怪自己太不小心了

今天下午看了CJ7  其中周星驰跟儿子说 不要拿不属于自己的东西 我又想到自己可怜的手机

电影散场 一路走下楼梯 清晰看到座位间凌乱的垃圾 又能怎么样呢

想想昨天得到的希望 很安慰 可惜丢失了证据 不能翻看回味 记在心里 想象你现在快乐的样子 想象我们未来一起快乐的样子 似乎为了这快乐 应该不惜一切代价 所有困难会变的渺小 我时常想起你 因为我现在沉浸在自己的痛苦中 当你离开后 我才觉得你很珍贵 但你现在很快乐 为什么还会想起我 你给我打电话 告诉我每个快乐细节 告诉我你所经历的一切 你毫无私心 你全心全意爱我 对不起 在过去的日子里 我无情的伤害着你 伤害着自己 我确实是个不懂事的人 你让我慢慢来 我不能让你失望 不应该让自己失望

说 人活着一定要有个目标 这也有助于长寿  信念是很重要的 听说一个重病的老人奇迹的恢复了健康 因为他的孙子的父母出事故死去 他必须去照顾他的孙子 我希望我们都拥有着信念 坚强的活着 我们要永远在一起 那天机场的画面我总是想起 那时候我们听着那首歌 坚信我们会永远在一起 后来 没有理智的我 摧毁了这信念 我把你带到了一个充满无所谓的世界 让你也变成了尸体 真糟糕啊

我已经这么丑陋了 是的 最好的朋友打电话来 没有说话  然后发短信对我说 你的声音变得陌生

我只是觉得自己罪孽深重 我真的想变好

浴室  词曲：椎名林檎訳词：ロビー·クラーク 编曲：斎藤ネコ 

 in a café just a little down the stairs

在一家咖啡店的楼梯尽头

from a city shop selling cameras and SOMEthings

从一家卖相机和某些东西的都会百货

i smelled your lighter oil mixed with coffee and cream

我闻到你的打火机油混合着咖啡和奶油的味道

an odor still lingered from the lines you gave me

你留给我的线索中 一种气味仍在徘徊

you said it did not you? "just do it kill me"

你不是说了么？“杀了我吧”  

today is a day that in particular

今天很特别

i seem to be smiling and laughing quite a lot

我感觉似乎一直在笑

i just had a dream and in it you had died and i had no choice then but to love you

我只是做了个梦 在梦里你已经死了 然后我别无选择除了爱你

do not think to abandonor ever leave me

别想抛弃我或是离开我 

so wash me cut me i am underwater

请洗刷我 刺痛我  我在水下

my lungs and breathing are quite affected

我的呼吸被强烈的振颤

please watch me closely and do check to see

请靠近看我 仔细察看

i dry out completely  i dry through and through

我完全变干了 我彻底干了

come shine me tear me i am underwater

过来照耀我 打破我  我在水下

relying completely on zero gravity and when I do melt down entirely immediately bon appétit 

完全地依靠失重 当我完全融化 立即好胃口 

it was you who was dying there right in front of me

你就是那个正好死在我面前的人

and i could not stop the tears i could not hold them in

我无法停止流泪 我不能把它们留在眼眶里

all of the little things of this little world are so very dear to me it hurts to think of them

这个小世界的一切小事对我都那么珍贵 想到它们就心疼

oh do not make me have those kind of dreams again

哦 别让我再拥有那种梦了

a scent so sweet that it got me dirty

一种气味那么甜 它使我卑微

the troops to protect me were out on patrol

那保护我的军队 已经不再巡逻了 

please watch me closely and do check to see

请靠近看我 仔细察看

i dry out completely i dry through and through

我完全变干了 我彻底干了

a lie so big that it got me dirty as soon as i said it a wound opened up

那么大的一个谎言使我卑微 当我说 一个伤疤被揭起

and when i do melt down entirely immediately bon appétit

当我完全融化 立即好欲望

you said it did not you? "just do it kill me"

你不是说了么？“杀了我吧”

so wash me cut me i am underwater

请洗刷我 刺痛我  我在水下

my lungs and breathing are quite affected

我的呼吸被强烈的振颤

please watch me closely and do check to see

请靠近看我 仔细察看

i dry out completely i dry through and through

我完全变干了 我彻底干了

come shine me tear me i am underwater

过来照耀我 打破我  我在水下

relying completely on zero gravity and when I do melt down entirely immediately bon appétit 

完全地依靠失重 当我完全融化 立即好胃口 

i am not afraid of a little boredom

我一点都不担心会无聊

why did the two of them ever chance to meet?

为什么它们俩曾经偶然相遇？

i am not afraid of a little boredom

我一点都不担心会厌倦

why did the two of them ever chance to meet?

为什么它们俩曾经偶然相遇？

i am not afraid.. END

我不害怕

这个MV不好看  跟听这歌的感觉完全不同

看这个图好不好看？

谁喜欢就请拿去当桌面

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Put your pretty dress on
it's time for you to go to the dance
tie your hair in ribbons and lace
and wear pearls round your neck
And all the pretty princes will see you
All the pretty princes will see you
Some day
Some day

Put your red boots on
it's time for you to walk home from school
every one will laugh
they'll point fingers at you
they'll be cruel
but cover up your ears and don't listen
because you'll know much better than them
some day
some day and they'll wave to you
and they'll wave to you put your red coat on
and walk with a light in the woods
if it gets dark dont get scared
there's so much waiting for you
cover up your tears and dont show them
cause you'll know much better than them
some day
some day and they'll wave to you
and they'll wave to you
and they'll wave to you
and they'll wave to you cause they don't see you like i see you
if they did, they'd see
the nice litte girl whose
grown up to become homecoming queen put your pretty dress on
put your red boots on

and they'll wave to you
and they'll wave to you
and we'll wave to you
and we'll wave to you

put your pretty dress on
put your red boots on
put your red coat on
put your pretty dress on
put your pretty dress on
put your red coat on
put your red boots on
put you pretty dress on

you should have a better life..

all the things won't end like this

 ☆Mika - Lollipop

I said sucking to hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
I said sucking to hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Sucking to hard on your lollipop
Loves gonna get you down
Sucking to hard on your lollipop
Loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Loves gonna get you down
I went walking with my momma one day
When she told me what people say
Live your life until love is found
'Cos loves gonna get you down
Take a look at the girl next door
She's a player and a downright bore
She's a slowzer, she wants more
Oh,bad girls get you down
Sing it
Sucking to hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Sucking to hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Mama told me what I should know
Too much candy gonna rot your soul
If she loves you let her go
'Cos love only gets you down
Take a look at a boy like me
Never stood on my own two feet
Now I'm blue as blue can be
Oh, love only got me down
Sing it
Sucking to hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Sucking to hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh loves gonna get you down
I was walking with my momma one day
When she told me what people say
Live your life until love is found
Or loves gonna get you down
Sing it
Sucking to hard on your lollipop
Loves gonna get you down
Sucking to hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Mama told me what I should know
Too much cand gonna rot your soul
If she loves you let her go
'Cos love only gets you down

Sucking to hard on your lollipop
loves gonna get you down
Sucking to hard on your lollipop
loves gonna get you down